Weary/Worn

I'm feeling discouraged. The summer slump is starting to get to me, and school is creeping up. I feel discouraged. I'm really worried about being good enough, being smart enough, being able to handle going to Whaeton if I get in. It's the *if* which is killing me. I hate personal risk.

The whole "babysitting" thing went off pretty well. We hung out alot and just had a fun time doing stuff. My OCD started acting up so I ended up cleaning their house. I spent two hours diving around their toddlers' room, picking up toys and straightening their bookcase and whatnot. It was a MESS. My friend said it hadn't been cleaned in a year, but he was probably exagerating becuase he does that alot. I rather suspect that having to deal with two post-toddler kids is alot of hassle.

I worry about the world sometimes. I realize that I'm completly screwed up in the head like everyone else, but sometimes hearing people talk in the bookstore it makes me fear for the world. If these "educated people" have such horrible opinions and morals and scruples, I don't even want to start onsidering the rest of the world.

I'm trying to memorize bible verses, so far I've got Romans 6:23 down, and am working on John 1 1:9. It's kinda difficult cuz I'm not used to it, but the verses kinda live inside of you and pop up during the day.