Fear

I find that when I start to write these bloggy things, I tend to vent and whine a bit. This kinda bugs me 'cuz I don't like it when people whine. But, I feel like I need to voice some stuff.

It seems like my mind has been dominated by fear alot the last coupla months. Alot of things have been uncertain, and I've been making some risky decisions, and it's all starting to wear a little thin. I've also been working alot and it's taking me a while to get back into the swing of school. I'm getting a bit fatigued I guess....... It's times like these that I really wish I had someone I could talk to. I know I should be pray'n an all, and I do, but, I dunno, I want something...... Corporeal. Most of my friends are younger then myself, or I'm not used to talking with them in a serious manner, so I got nada 'round here. I just feel so lonely. And I also realize I'm feeling really self-centered, which isn't good. I need a girlfriend. Or something. I dunno. Maybe a parrot? hurm. I miss having a person around who I was comfortable enough to be honest with.

I have my Wheaton phone interview on wednesday.